"Is this real life?"

 

I'm a zombie mom.

I wear this sweatshirt all the time.  It's comfy and it's easy to wear over my nursing shirts.

Tyler teaches Linc where the socks go...

My baby boy wearing jeans!

I love the little goober pea!

Right now I'm watching A Beautiful Mind.  It's one of those really great movies worth watching, but it's always sadder than I remembered.  Today I happen to be sad already, so I thought what the heck.  Plus, I have a good trick that I use for movies that are too sad or frightening for me to handle.  I see them critically, as perhaps a director would.  I watch it as a piece of art rather than following the story too closely.  The people on the screen are actors not characters (which we usually allow ourselves to forget for a time).  And so I think to myself, wow, he's doing a really great job at portraying a genius gone crazy  rather than, wow, look at what his wife has to go through!  (Of course my trick works best with movies not based on true stories!)

Today I am tired.  So very tired.  I have been for a while.  It's only partly due to breastfeeding Lincoln 2 to 3 times a night.  If that were all, I think we'd be ok.  Unfortunately, I can't seem to sleep in between those feedings either.  

It makes the daytime strange.  My head feels light and empty... yet heavy at the same time.  Sometimes I get the feeling I shouldn't be driving.  And when that happens I get home as soon as possible.  

And other times I feel like the boy on youtube, after the dentist.  "Is this real life?  What's happening to me?"  And yes, I scream randomly.